A Girl with a Broken Smile...

Where have I been?

I have been here just not here. Since October we have gone to NYC which was amazingly fun!! We had Thanksgiving (just us two), We got a big Christmas tree, had Christmas, Rushed home NYeve to kiss in the new year, had Christmas #2 in LBC and have been working.

I am still at airport hoping that this year will be the last! Hoping that it will be only a couple more months! That all depends on Starbucks. I had an interview for Shift Supervisor and it was postponed due to me being on the same shift as a co worker who was upset and not censoring what they were saying at work and somehow i was "guilty by association" as my manager put it.

I would consider this co worker a friend outside of work, so i was listening to the rant, giving them an objective view to the situation. Because i didnt walk away while they were upset and running their mouth, another co worker assumed i was at fault as well.

I was in no way involved in bad mouthing or bashing my manager. Why in the world would i do that if i want to go anywhere in this company?!

I cleared things up and everything is well between me and my manager, he likes me, he says he is going to get my interview back but probably will not be for a few weeks. i am still very disappointed and feel like this issue i got roped into just sent me back months of hard work. Like it doesn't matter that my name is cleared i feel it will stiff be held over my head just because i was assumed to be at fault.

Because of this delay, another one of my coworkers had the interview and is now rumored to be getting a Lead position at our store.

This is like a punch in the gut. I HAD IT! it was in arms reach, there was a light at the end of this long tunnel of two jobs, and all this hard work i have been putting into this promotion was finally paying off, and it was taken from me JUST because i was working that day; just because i lent a friendly ear.

If only i called in sick that day, if only i started after my co workers rant, if only they just accepted the fact they don't get along with the manager and just keep their mouth shut at work. if only i was working with someone else that day...

So maybe this position at our store isn't the one i am supposed to get. Maybe it wasn't the answer to our prayers. Maybe there is some other lead position available at a different store and that is where i am going to be called to. Or at least that is what I have to tell myself, and pray about.
Pray that there is something else out there. Pray i get the opportunity to interview again and soon. Pray that 2011 becomes my year of dropping job #2! I will be!

p.s. thank you God for a husband with encouraging words!

♥ JB